[探索十一] 躁 | unsettled

Had a very bad run through on my part. I think I am unsettled because I had been rushing around the entire week getting logistics and adminstration done for Quiese, getting sponsors and print works done.

We lose our synchronization. Woan Wen and Chin Huat felt that this fall was necessary as part of the process. I agree but this failed run made me question a lot of choices I’ve made in this project. I am going to re-look into my direction and motivation. Perhaps because of the focus on space, I had lose my focus on the relationship between performance and the performer, I had stop questioning “liminality”. I’ll need to re-explore and re-think on certain things to get it in the right path for myself again.

Things I need to ponder on:

• gaps, pauses, “breathing space”, anticipation, waiting, causality

• listening, emptying